cennetig (cennetig) wrote,
cennetig
cennetig

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 I flew home for about 20 hours to see my mom.  I don't exactly know what to say.  She is physically stronger than the last time I saw her actually but just seems to have less life.  I spent an entire day sitting with her and had to pretty much initiate every exchange.  Im not really sure you could call it conversation.  Well, there's one thing that she will say without prompting and thats that she wants to live at home again.  Thats never going to happen though.  She is staying with my sister's family because she has moments where her brain doesn't judge what she is capable of and she does dangerous stuff.  Of coarse I want to write that off as my mother having always been an annoyingly stubborn person but I have to take my siblings' word for it.  

After leaving her for the evening my brother told me the doctor said she will probably have a large stroke in the spring and die.  Who knew they could predict this stuff but apparently its true.  I can't say that I'm in a very good place with it but what are you going to do?  That prediction actually makes it easier for me to go to China without to much fear.  In febuary I will schedule a week in which I can go home and spend as much time with her as I can.  I don't know what else to do.
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